I always wonder why our mind and brain do conflict? I wonder why can’t I let things go rather than adamantly clinging on to them…its crazy that one is not happy with what he has…every time if you think ‘why don’t I have that?’…once you get that…u will never be satisfied with that and still be unhappy rather than being the ‘most happiest person’ on this earth…That reminds me…recently I got a laptop…that day something else happened that made me unhappy all throughout the day…which in turn made me sober while I got my new laptop…since I am not much of a materialistic person…I convinced myself that ‘maybe I am not much possessive of any materialistic things’...like the other day I lost a ring...i could let it go…I don’t care if I don’t have a mobile…nor much money…but it’s hard to let someone go!...this reminds me why is it this hard to let someone go?…when i see someone for the last time and will never see that person for ever…I open my eyes wide open to have a last glance at that person so that an imprint of that person is created for ever in my mind…but this imprint will not last forever…I am aware…still I let that person go…not saying a word…and this does haunt for a while…but I guess this is part of life…people come and go…and the lesson that I am struggling to learn (which I still hasn’t learn) is that ‘it takes a lot of courage to let someone or something go’…going on with my life with some ‘complications and contradictions’, I at times give up faith in life which makes me feel like to fall flat on my face…one day in such thoughs, I was walking on the road…thinking about the miserable life I was living…loosing hope I looked to the sky and said to myself ‘oh god…only you could help me’ suddenly I heard a bell ring…a temple bell…. then I thought to myself that something good could happen…and that I just need to hold on with some ‘faith’ in my help…I guess that was a lesson to learn after all one could only learn from his/her own life experiences…
